About Asyrmedo

Hello, beloved me in another form. The name I have chosen for myself here on this plane of existence is Asyrmedo, a simple character playing in my dream. This name is a container for the vibrational frequency that I am, in a sense, extending outward. You can call me by that name, or by no name at all. As a physical being having the experience of a woman, the story is simple. I once searched relentlessly for love in a partner and for joy in the world, both ending in great disappointment. After numerous failures, I began questioning my true purpose and what is truly real. I started to realize that even if the content of experience appeared different, the patterns and the lessons were the same. So I began practicing gentle self‑love – buying myself flowers, treating myself to that slice of tiramisu I liked. I confronted my past traumas with courage and allowed myself to feel fully what I had once repressed. I let myself cry until the emotional wound dissolved with the tears. I practiced forgiveness and intuitively knew that it is not about forgiving others, but about forgiving myself for having allowed others to make me feel certain ways. Perhaps I was lucky that somehow I knew; I do not know. And yet the path I was on at that time – a quite controversial path, that of the illusion of a "twin flame" – brought me to the point of unbearable suffering, and ultimately to the thought of giving up on my life completely. Until I discovered the truth of Presence and a profound recognition began flowering within me. I started practicing presence through non-conceptual contemplation. I had no idea what I was doing, if it was working or if I was doing it 'right', but I could sense some relief gradually increasing. I would contemplate flowers and realized I didn't need to think about the flower in order to perceive it. In fact, I noticed that the essence of the flower was even more vibrant and its presence even more comforting when I would enjoy it without projecting my likes and dislikes onto it. I would scan the walls of my bedroom, focusing on simply being aware that I am aware, and a spaciousness started to make its way through me. But then someone 'new' appeared in my life, and for a while I forgot about all those practices, until I experienced disappointment again. And then again. It became clear to me that I was stuck in a loop from which I needed to break free. All that suffering guided me inward, toward a question so potent that it became my last. There was nothing more to lose. I had everything I ever wanted: a stable job, good finances, independence. I could buy anything I wanted – and I certainly did – but nothing would satisfy me, because I felt I didn't have love. It was so conflicting that at some point it didn't even feel real anymore. I wanted love more than anything: to be loved by the one I was loving, or life had no meaning. Through that story of suffering, I spontaneously awakened to the inherent presence of what I truly am, of what we all truly are as One: the shared Being of Aware Presence, which is the ultimate Peace and Joy of Life. How? This is a story which culminates in no story at all. One night, at the age of 32, a few pages from a book on Zen Buddhism sparked an accelerated inner shift. Moved by the resonating truth, a deeper "me" questioned what was never questioned before, while my ego-self cried at its own suffering. "Who am I?" I felt hopeless and ready to lose everything, but right then and there, there was a knowing in me that who I thought I was was not real at all. "If all is bliss, why am I suffering? Who am I? I want to know who I am!" I cried several times. Later that night, I woke up to the familiar rush of compulsive thoughts – even stronger than before. My thoughts were screaming, but with a very distinct difference that I only later understood: I was no longer entangled in them; I was aware of them as an observer. I simply decided I would rest with or without the noise of my thinking, and so I pushed my head into the pillow, not caring about what those thoughts were telling me anymore. That simple decision created a spaciousness between me and my thoughts. I was suddenly not 'them' anymore. And in that brief moment of what I would later understand as complete surrender, the mind fell utterly silent. A profound peace emerged spontaneously, and an infinite spaciousness felt as if it were expanding at the top of my head, like a long‑sealed jar finally opened, its inner space released into the vastness. Of course, it took the body quite some time to catch up and intellectually understand the depth of that realization, and it is still catching up in its own human ways. Yet the living truth flows through it as that which I have always been: the primordial Presence of existence that is one with all. I am nothing and no one, and yet through that I am all that is at once. Only in this full nothingness is there true peace and the sweet nectar of eternal life. Since then, I have moved through life as life and recognized the inherent joy and love that I am – beyond name and physical appearance. I am here to extend an invitation to you, the one still seeking joy and fulfillment in the world. Explore your essential nature to awaken to the truth of what you inherently are – that which is temporarily veiled by the content of an apparent chaotic world. Ultimately, it is your birthright to know your deeper self and live from the joy of that embodied truth. Through your awakening, you will create from true peace which can naturally transform our planet's collective experience from suffering and division into being‑consciousness‑bliss.